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Do you realise it’s been over 3 months since my last thought for the day? Far far too long, am sure many of you need to be tortured in some way or another…so here goes.
My thought for today is: Loneliness
There were many times for many years that I felt lonely in my life whether in a group of people, large or small or even family, as well as the obvious physically alone.
It’s a hard thing to explain to anyone who hasn’t experienced it.
So bear with me as I try…imagine your in a bubble, completely see-through, noise is on the outside and muffled whilst you are completely quiet, not a whisper of noise, not only that but those people on the outside are somehow connected to each other, to everyone except you and they are moving at a slightly different speed, faster, sometimes not much faster but somehow too fast for you to catch up on, no matter how you try, what you do, what you say you simply cannot keep up.
You are isolated, alone, no chance of any of these people ever understand you or you them so desperately wanting to be part of their world to be part of anything so this bubble of loneliness goes away.
You get to the point where you simply don’t want to see anyone, after all these people won’t even notice you’re not there. What you don’t realise first of all is that this bubble follows you every where you go, even when you are alone. You can look out the window and feel exactly the same, you thought that it would be better but its no different, you don’t fit in, you never will and you are alone so you just get on with it, accept it as part of your life, a part that will always be there.
Then you get a dog, a pet, and you begin to build a relationship like no other, oh I know some of us are married and love our partners, I know I do, but this is different, this is like someone who listens to you knight and day, who always understands what you need, who never asks for anything back expect food and love, who ALWAYS loves a cuddle, no limits, no boundaries, no requirements and certainly no hassle.
Then as you begin to feel less lonely, you begin to walk, to grow, to love not only yourself just a little bit more but what’s around you, the scenery, and you learn to smile again, at yourself, at your luck to have found this amazing wonderful gentle soul who has become a part of you.
The one day your family member meets another of his/her family, what to do, you do what you must, you say hello and all of a sudden you are talking to someone who isn’t outside your bubble, you have a common thread, a common belief, a common love……you have made a friend.
You realise that even when you are alone you are not lonely, you are warm, cocooned in a blanket of cotton wool and smelling of comfort, of friendship of peace.
Is it any wonder that I fight every single day of my life to make Dizzy a reality when this is in fact my story, I have so very much to be thankful for, I have 3 wonderful dogs in my life and I had the honour of loving Dizzy himself…..why do I fight…..so that everyone who needs it can have what I have and so that every animal gets the love and peace and comfort they deserve.
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